Initiation

At first

it feels horrible.

That why me

That Oh I why do I try

run a way

-disappear for a while.

This system has learned

the urge to disintegrate

not to sucide

not to hide.

But to yes.

allow my particles to be present in every tree’s leaf

to empty fully

of my own worry

and allow

the fresh air in

to even welcome the fire

then the earth and the water

My feet are wet and cold

but I am dressed up and glowing

turning the moment

that makes us all

burst into tears

-just at the entering memory

into the belief

finally appeared.

he is walking again.

he is seeing again.

she sits comfortably in her throne.