I let go

yes but how

do I let

the fuck

GO

I love to be attached

carrying my past

the heaviness feels

nice

the trauma comes to break me

break the habit

break the cycle

bring me to my next life

and yet I stay

picking away

forcing fracture

does that mean letting go

is to surrender

to my light sharp impulses

unexplained wisdom

that were never about me

I am not the one who fixed anything

who saved anyone

I am the one who followed what I am made of

the sober vibration that made my body forget time

the moments so full of excitement

I wonder if I can hold

so much energy inside one body

I am the one who followed

my passion tears that come bursting every time I speak

of the power of the earth

of the creativity of the people

and the ways we are made together

I am the one who followed

the HOW DARE YOU

not listen

to the gifted challenges

showing me

how to embrace more of my self

the WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE

to stay afraid

not listening to the one voice

that is really mine

its the whole universe, its the heart of the the earth

every moment yearning to give birth

through all of me

I have to listen

my body remembered

and then I found my self standing

at the edge

of the sun rise and the sun set

always — at the same exact time